"Heads you live, Tails you Die..."

Just saw this intresting movie tonight I rented over the weekend. It's called "Domino", it stars Keira "I'm-so-glad-they-don't-know-me-from-that-soccer-flick-anymore Knightley, Mickey Rourke (Mr. Bad Ass from "Sin City") and a whole other bunch of rag-tag B-List/A-List actors. It's directed by Tony "Shakey, Blinky, Flashbacks & Big Subtitles" Scott from "Man on Fire" fame...

Keira plays this spoiled rich girl turned Bounty Hunter in a bizzare tale that includes the Mob, the FBI, and a 10 million Dollar heist. Seeing this movie makes you think about the decisions you make in life and the consequences they bring.

He we have a woman given everything in life and she chucks it all away for kicks...

People do this type of thing all the time. They want to make it in the big city...so they fill up a suitcase and buy a one way ticket somewhere, caution to the wind.

I consider myself a person that thinks on his toes, someone who (Conscience willing) will do whatever it takes to get through the day. Not survive mind you, just to get by. My outlook for the future is so bleak I only take one day at a time, becuase what's the point in planning something for the long haul if you're not promised tomorrow?

I mean, I know god up there has a Loooooooong and tormented plan for me which makes me believe I will live damn near forever till I'm begging for the calm hand of death to take me and then I'll live some more...so what's stopping me from walking out of this reteched existance to give fate a turn on the world out there.

At the rate I'm going, I might as well...find a place that suits me...L.A.?, Seattle?, Alaska?, Hawaii?. It would have to be in the states because I don't think I can live an unamerican life. Meric, different currency, differnt customs.

I like to read, write, and I'm good with computers...I would love to just work in a small bookstore somewhere, or a library again...just a simple life.

I know it's just a movie, but the more I read, see and hear about Bounty Hunting...(Cowboy Bebop, Dog the Bounty Hunter (NO, I don't watch it, just heard about it...), HBO's Family Bonds, those Stephanie Plum novels...) the more curious I am about it. I could always be those intel nerds tracking people down by hacking the DMV Database and such...

As trippy and inspiring as it was, I'm not going to burn a copy for myself. Sometimes the most influential films are those you only see once, or not even, but you've heard of it and it changes your outlook in life. Movies like "To kill a Mockingbird", "Dancer in the Dark", "Vanilla Sky", dare I even say "Crash"...then, they're others you become obessed with and you watch all the time, like in my case..."HEAT" (Which I've watched for the 16th time this year so far...).

I recommend to everyone you see ("Domino", I mean, not "HEAT") it at least once, it was pretty good. Makes me wish I saw it in the theater.

Man, why the fuck can I have friends to sit around watch movies with and discuss? I need to have my own TV show on IFC or something...

or find a girlfriend who goes to film school.

PS, I thought it was kinda sexy the way Keira used her accent to say the repeated line "I'm a Bon-tee Hun-tah" (I'm a Bounty Hunter)...Hot!

"107 Million....Whoo-HOOO!"




YES!!!..X-Men kicks ass this weekend estimating over 100 mill in 3 days!

Breaks the record for Memorial Day Weekend Box Office once held by The Lost World:Jurrasic Park 2

Only 3 places short of the overall record held by Spider Man, Shrek 2 and Episode 3!

What a great story...I think word of mouth will keep it on top for two more weekends...Hopefully the haters will be outnumbered becuase this will probably be the best movie out till July.

Me being a Garfield fan, I'll see "Tale of two Kitties", and maybe I'll give Superman a chance...but I'm Really waiting for "Pulse" and "Dead man's Chest" in July, "Miami Vice" in August (I think.) and that's it. This summer looks weak.

ON the other hand, Keanu has a couple I'll thinking about...

His romantic reunion with his "Speed" girlfiend, Sandra "I'm-married-to-Mr.-Motorcycle" Bullock in "The Lake House" I would like to go on date to see that movie (Hint, hint, wink, wink)...AND that weird cartoon-like movie "A Scanner Darkly"...Philip K. Dick's novels have been hit and miss (Blade Runner, Impostor, Minority Report, etc, etc...) I think this one may rock, I just don't know WHEN is it coming out...

So that's it...X-Men beats the haters this weekend, a big middle finger goes to those who crapped on it. Put your hate towards something more deserving...like "CARS"!!!!

Say it with me one more time....107 Million...Boo-Ya!

"It's just my Imaginatition..."

"She walks in...

Hair the color of a fallen leaf in autumn, not too red, not exactly yellow, sorta like a Strawberry Blond. Her voluptuous body shimmers in the low light emanating from the dimly lit lamps in the living room. A gasp of air leaves me as I come across those wonderful slightly slanted eyes of hers...Oh, how I longed for this moment in time, I wish I could just freeze it like a portrait and hang it over my bedroom wall.

We're all alone in my house, I escort her to my room where a bed littered with rose petals awaits us. Neither of us says a word, we did enough talking on IM to last a lifetime. We slowly take off each others clothes. She traces the birthmark on my neck with her finger...I took a moment to admire the pair of tattoos she once said she regretted getting. I let her on my lap as I sat at the edge of the bed, she slowly wraps her legs around my waist. I gaze down at her awesome cleavage and then draw close to give her a soft peck on her neck, then brought my face close to hers. Our noses are centimeters apart and I lose myself in those those eyes of hers, her eyes, her beautiful eyes...

"I must be dreaming" I whisper.

"Yes, you are." She replies back

*SNAP* I wake up back in my room, alone....

DAMN!

It's 8pm and I've been looking in craigslist for hours!!!!

Nothing out there...There was a post this past Thursday and Friday from the same woman I tried to meet on that diasterous adventure the last time I was alone back in January but nothing today. I sent her a Text Message and she replied back it was her "Time of the Month"...Ewwwww, gross. STRIKE ONE, then there was another I was doing reseach on (I've got this down to a freakin SCIENCE, looking up these "Professionals"..I know the lingo, the code words, abrivations, etc, etc...), but she was out of the city...STRIKE TWO...then I had damn near had a heart attack...there a post out there from someone named "LOVELY". Could this be?...MY LOVELY from oh, so long ago?!?!? I read the post and looked at the picture below...I really couldn't tell right away, they looked the same, but the face...it couldn't have been the same girl...it was a tough call...STRIKE THREE.

I thought about checking out AFF (AdultFriendFinder) but I've been reduced to a non-paying Standard Member which limits my options when it comes to browsing and contacting other members.

God, to be all alone in this house and no one to hook up with is such a freakin waste. I could made (or Ordered) a nice dinner, watches a few movies, see the sunset from my terreace and make out...just like what I used to do when I was 13. Damn I miss Opal...who would have thought relationships would be easy when you're younger, and get harder as you get older?

I decided it wasn't going to happen this weekend, so I made of list of things to do...

A) Make the last DVD's of Downloaded episodes of "Lost" and "House" to finish your collections of Season 2 homemade DVD's

B) Watch all the Blockbuster/Influential Movies of 2005 in order of best to decient...

1) Constantine
2) Crash
3) Sin City
4) Mr. and Mrs. Smith (P.S. Kudos to the duo for their new baby Girl!!!)
5) Fantastic Four
6) Episode 3:Revenge of the Sith
7) Batman Returns
8) War of The Worlds

C) Watch "HEAT" and "COLLATERAL" (Damn, i'm going to be watching a lot of DVD's)

D) Pig out and eat one pint of Haagen-Dazs Vanilla Ice-Cream

E) Walk around the house naked like I used to when I lived alone.

F) Show off my naked ass to some horny, freaky chicks with my webcam (Aside from AFF, I've now discovered other Webcam networks...Camfrog and Eyeball Chat...)

G) Dig out the fan cuz it's friggin Hot and Humid already!!!

H) Take COLD SHOWER after having that niiiiiice dream!!!!

Enjoy the rest of the holiday people, I got some work to do!!!

"X-Men:The Last Stand"...GREAT F**KIN' MOVIE!!!!

Got that line from "Eddie Murphy's Raw" when he was making fun of the italians and how they worship the movie "Rocky"...."eh, Greak fookin' Moo-viee!".

Saw it this morning, which turned out to be a good thing cuz it stormed like hell again after 8pm last night...hard rain, thunder, lightning, the works...glad I came home...

Anyway, the movie was great...the writers kept the "Dark Phoneix" Saga from the comics minus the whole space aliens mumbo jumbo. All the new mutants to the film storyline had their moments (Some say they miss Nightcrawler from Pt.2, don't dwell on it too much...wanna know what happened to him, play the "Offical" video game...). Great one-liners, homages (There's this great scene when Famke Janssen re-enacts her famous scene from "Goldeneye"...)

I'm not giving anything away, just go see it AND stay for the credits!!!!

Great movie, better than anything comic related....

Spider-Man, Fantastic Four, ANYthing!

Don't listen to the critics, don't listen to the Die-Hard's that miss Nightcrawler or Bryan Singer's Direction, go in with an open head and enjoy...

"Ghost Rider" looks impressive for next year, too...

I'm definately seeing a couple of more times.

PEACE!!!

"Damn, Gina!"

It's 7pm, and I'm home typing this entry. WHY?!?

Because "X-Men 3" was sold out 2 hours ahead of the night at my favorite remote theater near Batery Park!

Blame it on the nice weather, which eased up after an afternoon thunderstorm!

Damn, I couldn't believe it. I've seen so many blockbusters on the first day at this place because it's so deep downtown.

Guess I'll go first thing tomorrow.

MOM's going to see an old friend neaby Philly Tomorrow, and aside from the movie I only have one other thing in mind...sex, Sex, SEX!!!!

I'll be checking out Craigslist this weekend...wish me luck!

"The beginning...of the End."

Now that TV's behind me and the job is stablizing (or is it?), it's time to reveal something I don't want to come to terms with...

A couple of weeks ago, JOE went down To St. Augstine, Florida for a Job Interview...

Last Thursday (Day Before the Concert.) I had called him during my lunch break to ask how'd it go...

ME:"Sup' Dude, how's it's goin?"

JOE:"Heeeey, man, what's goin' on?"

ME:"I'm cool, man, just got started working in this german bank on Park Avenue..."

JOE:"Great man, they still stringing you around, huh?"

ME:"Yeah, yeah...SO, how'd it go in Florida that week?"

JOE:"Oh, great, man...I GOT the JOB."

(silence)...I had to let that sink in...

JOE:"I'm movin' June 19."

(silence becomes quieter, if that's possible...)

A lump the size of a baseball swells in my throat, and my eyes ACTUALLY start to WATER...

(30 of the longest seconds go by and I realize JOE's stopped talking...)

ME:(Forced Chuckle)"Tha-ha-ha-ha-t's GREAT man, congrats!"

Bile starts to build in my mouth as cough and laugh at the same time, I start to do one of those Hysterical laughs when tears come out of your eyes as a cover...

JOE:"Yeah, man I can't believe it, the whole family, going down there, the wife's putting house on the market, we'll be ready in no time....SO, um why don't we get together tomorrow and celebrate?"

ME:"Maaaaaan, I wish I could, but I got the concert at Radio City..."

JOE:"Oh yeah, ROOTS, I forgot you were goin' to that...I-ight then, catch up later?"

LES:"Sure, sure!" I wipe a tear from my eye and violently slam my fist into the table....

JOE:"Okay man, enjoy the concert...peace." (Hangs Up)

I sit there in a stunned silence, lips clinched in a haunting grimice...

You have no idea how hard it was to enjoy that concert with that news floating in my mind.

My BEST friend, My ONLY friend...is leaving...this time for good.

Even as I type this my hands are shaking.

Sure, I can always go down to visit, but...

I don't what am I gonna do when he leaves...it's the ultimate...

If it were actually possible..."The Lone Wolf" becomes EVEN MORE alone...

I'm at a loss...I'm already doing things by myself as it is (Movies, Concerts, etc...), but the thought of not playing any video games with...not going anywhere over the weekend when MY family are driving me crazy...

JOE was my only OUT...

It's like, Batman losing Robin...Green Hornet losing Kato...Kid Rock losing Joe C.

Puffy losing Biggie....

I can hear that voiceover at the end of the song "Victory" playing in my head...

"Aiyyo, can you hear me out there?
Aiyyo turn me up, nobody can hear me out there
That's good, it's all f**ked up now
Y'all know it's all f**ked up now right?
What the fu*k I'ma do now?
What I'ma do now?
Can y'all hear me out there?

Can y'all hear me out there?

(Fu*k y'all ni@@az wanna do)

It's all fuc*ed up now.. what I'ma do now, huh?
What I'ma do now? It's all fuc*ed up now..."

Word.

"I was Wrong."



Remember the end of "Star Trek:Nemesis"? When DATA sacrificed himself to save everyone? He uttered one last word as PICARD was beamed back to the Enterprise...

"Goodbye."

It choked me to tears...

The same thing almost happened tonight on LOST as I saw Locke face Eko with the impending doom of the hatch self destructing...his possible last thought in a brief statement that will echo in my mind the whole summer...

"I was Wrong."

*SOB*....this is the true meaning of drama.

Such raw emotion...

So MANY QUESTIONS!!!!!

1) Have we seen the last of Michael and Walt?

2) Will Sayid somehow rescue Jack, Kate and Sawyer?

3) Should Jin and Sun just ride that damn boat as far away from the island possible?

4) So "Henry"'s running things?

5) Is there a connection between the real "Henry" and Desmond's Girlfriend?

6) Will the system failure in the Hatch crash another plane?

7) a)If the button releases a magnetic charge that cannot build up for more than 108 minutes, what does that have to do with the whole "Quarantine" sign thing?

7) b)Did Eko figure it all out just in time for him to die before telling anyone?!?!

8) And how rich is Desmond's girlfriend to have Russians try to look for him by monitoring magnetic fields from the north or south pole?

Too freaking weird...

"77 Million...take THAT, Mister Scientology!!"



Not that I really care, but something told me that the movie would either tank or make it big...

The DaVinci Reign will be short lived, thou...I plan to see "X-Men:The Last Stand" SO MANY TIMES...it'll be insane!

90 Million Plus next weekend...so help me god....

"Whoa, Nelly!"

After doing some reseach about last night's concert, I finally found out who that Indian Chick was (not P.C. of me callin her indian I know...but ya'll catch my drift.).

Her name is J. Davey, and accorinding to Her Website a lot of people were taken in by her bizzare performance. And after hearing samples of other songs on the site, I can surely say so am I!

She has been compared to Prince mixed with a lil Erykah Badu by the way of Radiohead. Sorta like Electro-Funk-Soul...she has no offical CD out, but I plan to get whatever I can find out there and load my mp3 player with it. (Hmmmm, I wonder if Fire's Digital Eargasm has anything by her...)

In other news...

Saw SNL for the first time in a long time (The show is really falling off these days...) with Kevin Spacey as Host (Early plugging for "Superman" I guess, Didja see the new trailer with some of his scenes as Lex Luthor?), I really tuned in to see musical guest Nelly Furtado. I hear she's making a comeback (Not that she was every really gone long...). Rumors had her album dropping around now, but it's been pushed to June with this hot new single getting popular...

Come a lil after midnight she get's introduced with guest producer Timberland (Trying to rap again...) and perform "Promiscuous". The song is catchy in a "make-ya-dance" kinda way, but it was nothing I've seen her do before. Watching her dance and everything, it made me think of Fergie in the "My Humps" video...then later she comes back and perfomes a song called "Maneater" and it hit's me, this is NOT my Nelly Furtado!

What happened to the folksy crooning "I'm Like a Bird"?!!...or the hip-hop B-boy Tomgirl singing "Turn out the Light"?...It's like she's turning into a Britney Spears/Kelly Clarkson/Lindsey Lohan clone. Well sometimes artists re-invent themselves for more public acceptance, or maybe I'm jumping the gun, here.

Music has been so weird lately, I have yet to offically buy a CD yet. I've downloaded new albums by...

Rhianna
Pearl Jam
Christina Milian
Pink
DMX
Tangerine Dream
Fatboy Slim
and Busta Rhymes

and I haven't even listened to any of it yet.

Old music seems to be grabbing me more...I keep playing Todd Rundgen's "Hello It's Me" since the "That 70's Show" Finale. That is such a nice song, sometimes I think I grew up in the wrong decade...Ya'll old people had it nice.

You know, I think I would almost be brave enough to do that song in Karaoke.

7 Kinds of sex...

Rather than steal it, I'll just supply the link.

http://secretloverslane.blogspot.com/2006/05/7-kinds-of-sex-oh-my.html

I'm still looking around for fresh blogs to read people! Help me out here!!

PS I'm working on your list, kimmyk...one by one, thanks :)

"The most popular Letter..."

This is a lil quiz couretsy of the woman of my dreams...did you know the letter "I" is the most used letter in the alpahbet?


I SAID: "What the F*ck?!?" after doing my taxes.
I WANT: to be Loved.
I WISH: for a well paying, non-dramatic career.
I HATE: Drunk Drivers.
I MISS: being young and carefree.
I HEAR: Music, as if there's any other way to take it in, you can't taste it, you can't smell it...
I WONDER: if the Buffalo Bills will ever win a Super Bowl.
I REGRET: "I have only one life to give for my country.", nah I'm just playing..."not traveling when I had the money to"
I AM NOT: Happy, Pleasent, or even remotely Content with my current situation in life.
I DANCE: The dance of Brotherly LOVE!, Mamushka!
I SING: "Hollarback Girl" when I'm alone in the house.
I CRY: When I realize how alone I truly am.
I AM NOT ALWAYS: as innocent as I appear to be.
I MAKE WITH MY HANDS: A shadow of a bird on the wall.
I WRITE: my nines (9's) with a pointed "ear" at the top of the loop.
I CONFUSE: The chorus of "Chain of Fools" with "Shake your Groove".
I NEED: SEX!!!
I SHOULD: find a way to get Irene's Work Address so I can send her flowers on her 30th Birthday next month.
I START: sleeping the minute the TV's off.
I FINISH: (ed) every question except this one easily.
I TAG: FIRE5, KimmyK, LLF, and RED

"Brooklyn, STAND UP!!!!"

It was kinda stormy today, raining off and on.

After work I killed a couple of hours around Rockafeller Center then made my way towards Radio City Music Hall...

It was my second time inside, I'd forgottent how beautiful it is. High ceilling, fully stocked bar, downstairs basement with loads of exhibits. It's almost like a nightclub. You can mingle in the main hall before the show starts, then work your way to your seat. When I saw BJORK in 2001 I had a seat on the main floor in the middle, this time I wasn't as lucky...upper mezzanie, but at least I was on the end. The crowd was very diverse. A young crowd but still diverse...I didn't know so many white people liked The Roots (They could of been there to see Erykah Badu, thou...).

Now, I HAD seen a Roots show before, couple years ago at the Soundstage in Central Park. They really get the crowd moving. This however, wasn't a FULL Roots Concert.

The show was entitled "The Roots...WITH SPECIAL GUESTS" and boy were they GUESTS!

It started with a nice little perfomance by African folk singer Youssou N'Dour. Few knew him, but I did due to my vast taste in all kinds of music (That, and the "Bullworth" Soundtrack, heh, heh...). THEN the Roots made their entrance, coming throught the audience from the rear, the group playing live Marching Band instraments as Black Thought freestyled on a megaphone...it was so cool. Once they made their way to the stage they opened the first set with "Star", then "Step into the Realm", and then "The Next Movement". Right off the bat, the audence stood up and got into it, in order to see, I had to stand up too, and there weren't that many slow down moments to sit down to...

A few more songs after, they introduced their second "GUEST", another out-there artist that I knew, Angelique Kidjo. The tiny lil spitfire had the dance steps of James Brown as she sang a song about the motherland (I guess The Roots want to give props to their african...er, um, Roots, bad pun, I know...), the band then came back with more tracks like "What they Do" and "Hip Hop...Love of my Life", then they got to some headliners...the second guest EXPECTED to perform, fresh off his movie bit with Bruce Willis in "16 Blocks"...the mighty MOS DEF got introduced!

The crowd loved MOS, despite him looking like he took the train from Brooklyn in his ordinary look. He started off singing "Double Trouble" with the Roots and then did a set of songs on his own, "The Boogie Man Song" (Which I plan to play the next time I have sex...), his infamous spirital "Umi Says", and for the ladies, the classic "Ms. Fat-Booty".

Then, the roots tried a lil hard to put on some "up-and-comers"...an underground group called "Slum Vilage" took the stage next, I heard of them, but wasn't feeling their songs. Another female perfomer took the stage, she had this weird name with two J's (Janet Jane?, Jan Janet?, something...), the child had some short-shorts she must of stole from Mariah Carrey after her "Rainbow" Meltdown...and a Native American Headdress. She had a squeeky "Gwen Stefani"-Type voice trying sing and rap...if it wasn't for her outfit, the song she sang might have been worth giving a second listen (Maybe I can look her up somewhere...).

Now, you think after all that B-Materal, The Roots would come back...nope...they threw in a big unexpected surprise (The first of two of the night...), a visit by DAVE CHAPELLE!!! He did a couple of funny bits, trying to explain why he left the show and went to africa, it was cool. The Roots finally came back for more crowd favorites...the audience his back into the show again...and I start to smell an uncontrolable substance in the air...things slow down again when soul/R&B artist BILAL came on to do a song. Black Thought then takes a moment to introduce the band members for a couple of solos, including Will Smith's old buddy DJ JAZZY JEFF who can still work them turntables.

The show enters it's final stage with the introduction of Erykah Badu who is still sporting that big hair wig of hers. She starts the set with "Otherside of the Game" (Which wasn't one of my favorites...), the followed with "Next Lifetime". She still got it, she can really hit those high notes, almost like Mary J. Blige or Mariah. She then took it back with her first big hit "On and On", which the audience practally knew by heart. The intro to the colabo hit "You got Me", brought Badu and The Roots together for what appeared to be the finale, but there was more in store. Black Thought did a few freestyles over the latest and greatest beats, "Gold Digger", "Juicy", and "I get Around", THEN he brought out another mysterious guest...

Sporting a gray hoodie hiding his face, but wearing a lot of ice, the MC came out to the mic pulled his hood back and yelled "ALLOW ME TO INTRODUCE MYSELF...MY NAME IS HOV!" The crowd went ballistic! JAY-Z! The chairman of Def-Jam, MISTER BEYONCE himself rapping on stage with THE ROOTS. The place got so loud, you'd think the Knicks won the championship! Jigga did "Public Service Announcment" and ended the night with "Encore". Despite the hit and miss, the show had a great finish. It just wasn't enough Roots, thou, but I'm not mad...jus wish I went with someone, seeing all those couples enjoying the love songs, kinda felt like a kick to the kidneys.

A full 3 hour show, my feet were killing me from all standing. I got home at around 12:15 am, tired but still charged by the great show.

"Do the 'Du"

This week I downloaded "Go Sudoku" on my PSP. I've heard of Sudoku and seen it in newspapers, but never could get it, till now!

This game is SO cool! It almost kinda relaxes the mind while testing it at the same time...like doing a rubik's cube. It's very addicting, too!

In other news...

Roots concert tomorrow...the money starts flowin in again, and Miami is starting to look like it will ACTUALLY happen...

The thought of being on the beach...just like "Running Scared" (The Billy Crystal/Gregory Hines buddy cop movie not that new independent film that just came out...) seeing if people actually just watch the sun set down there.

I also heard they shoot videos of "Girls gone Wild" down there like episodes of "Law and Order" here in the city, LOL!

"Thumbing Through...looking for something new..."

I'm going ove my list of blogs that I read...and I've discovered a few have moved on...

Fruit loops and Porn...Puns and Pundits...there's quite a few that have gone the way of the "Half Nekkid Thursday" (Like, who does that anymore?).

And yes, while reading the everyday Bush Bashing, Country Squaking, Redhead Rambling, AND Thoughts & Musings of a certain object of my affections...a guy wants more to read.

SO, I open the floor to my dear readers...

If you know any other blogs that might tickle my fancy, speak them up!

I'd prefer a few more fellow New Yorkers, but I'll read almost anything so long as they lead a dull, weird, or interesting existence...

'been hitting that "Next Blog" button for so long...coming up dry.

"Photos!"

I've been meaning to add all my photos to my "ShutterBlog NYC" Blog, but I keep forgetting about it...SO instead I decided to do what everyone else does and open a FLICKR account!

You can check out my pics at...

http://www.flickr.com/photos/jet_black/

There're be more to come now that it's a cinch to update,

Enjoy!

"Bookends."

I got called back to work today, things are a little better than they were on monday, but the assignment has barely taken off the ground. We were able to keep busy the whole day, but there are still a LOT of problems popping up every 10-15 minutes. I'm trying to keep my flaps on the road and just be the good race horse, do what I'm there to do...Scan Documents.

The team setup is still to be determined. The two girls from the last couple of projects are back, but our Team Leader may be reassigned to another project once things get smooth. This gig is only expected to last three weeks (Simular to the Wall Street project Last November). The reason my Team Leader won't be with us too long is because part of this assignment takes place in ANOTHER LOCATION...and she's needed there. AND, I don't want to jump the gun, BUT there is a small chance that if we finish at this midtown office, the team may also be sent OVER THERE (No gurarantee, thou!)...you wanna know where that location is?...Why am I pointing it out with such a flair for the dramatic?....

Because it's down in FREAKING M-I-AMI FREAKING FLORDIA!!!!...WHOOOOOOOOOOOOOO (20 seconds of hyperventatlating)...*gasp*, Gasp*, whoo...okay, don't get excited, you're not down there, yet...your team leader is not there, yet...BUT JUST THE THOUGHT, MAN!!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHH (ANOTHER 20 seconds of hyperventatlating)....Shut UP, Man, CHILL *SLAP*...okay I'm calm again...

and SINCE this assignment is so short and questionable, I also don't feel guilty still collecting my unemployment insurance. I just got approved for six months, WHO knows if I'll be working by June or July? So i'm double dipping here...hell I need the money, I'm trying to move back out, remember?!?!?

So, that's the dilly, no big plans this weekend with Mother's Day here in all...

Psycho-Sys wants to make MOM dinner at her place as a suprise, SO I have to pretend to be going over there to fix something so we can all be together...

Dunno, what I can get mom this year, she never appreciates the gifts I get her...

Mother's day is such a headache every year...Me and Psycho-Sis get into a fight becuase of my opinion that SHE IS NOT A REAL MOTHER...this offends her and she starts crying and I always storm off, it's the same ol' song and dance...

On a Brighter note, I have my Roots concert at Radio City next week. I plan to make a special 512MB Memmory Card for my MP3 Player with ALL the greatest songs by The ROOTS, MOS DEF, and ERYKAH BADU, to get in the mood, so look for a change in the MP3 Playlist soon...

Before I finish, I gotta say it one more time...

Miami....

(20 seconds of hyperventatlating)

CALM DOWN YOU STUPID FOOL, *SLAP!*

"Wasting Away..."

Is it me or was Sunday night's episode of "Family Guy" the funniest in a LONG time?

I mean, I REALLY hate that show 85% of the time, but some of the refferences have me in stiches. They did a parody of "Poltergeist" (Complete with errie, scary music cues that feel like they were taken from the actual movie!) and it was just hysterical. I think Stewie had the best line as he was being pulled into the vortex...

"I haven't seen something suck so much since....I...HEART...HUCKLEBEES!!!!"

and then when he's in the TV calling to his parents, he pauses for a moment to use his synthisized voice in a rendition of Phil Collin's "In the Air", I was actually crying from laughter.

I even downloaded the episode so I could look at it around 6 or 7 times, I needed a good laugh after the STUPID day I had.

My next assignment is SO screwed up, god only knows when I'll actually begin. I didn't do anything but sit around listening in on conference calls between the Higher-Ups and the Client Reps as they argued and bickered over the database layout. Something was apparently wrong, and we can't start scanning till whatever it is gets fixed. This is why it's been so long since the UN gig. I was sent back home by 2pm, and it didn't look like I'd be called back anytime soon, SO...it's back to the drawing board for me.

I gotta hit some temp agencies while I'm waiting, I need something stable. I wanna stay in Document Scanning, but I want it to be on my terms.

The hunt continues, in the meantime, I'm gonna go watch that episode again...

"With great Power..."

(C'mon, a Comic Book/TV Show/Movie nerd like me you knew it was only a matter of time before I used the ULTIMATE super hero credo!)

When I was 18, MOM gave me my first credit card, linked from her CHASE account.

And even though it ended up on my Bankruptcy 3 years ago, I started off managing it pretty well.

My sister is 26, and now my mother is yet again making a SERIOUS mistake.

According to my sister there is only one major store WORTHY enough for my niece to get her clothes from...Old Navy. So much so, that she has repeately SHOPLIFTED from the store (she even got caught once, an embrassing secret MOM decided to share with me.) SO, now that she's working again and DESPITE that fact that she has failed miserbly paying her CON-ED, Cable, Phone, oh, hell you-name-it-she-didn't-pay-it bills...MOM is giving her a STORE credit card.

I know it's none of my business, it's has nothing related to me...it's one of those "WOMEN"-things mom goes through when it comes to my sister. It's like she blind to how irresponsible she is and she just lets her walk all over her like a doormat.

I can hear the cash registers ringing in her eyes already...

Why does the trip from THERE to HERE take longer than the trip from HERE to THERE?

Went out to Long Island to see JOE today...

As I've probably mentioned, going out to Long Island is JOURNEY. The train ride is around 90 minutes in which you usually fall into a temporary coma. At the start of the trek I call The Boy to tell him I'm on my way and he suddenly remembers something...

"My son has a Little League game today..."

I swear I almost snapped the cell phone in two.

"Come and watch him play, it'll be fun..."

If I wasn't in a crowded train, I'd scream at his ass.

"I'm going out there to stay AWAY from little kids, not be bother by others!"

Part of me wanted to get off the train at the next stop and go back home, but after what I paid to get on...I figured "The hell with it."

JOE's oldest son is the same age as Baby Girl and seeing him doing ANY sports is like ...ah, forget it...I don't rag on the lil runt, but lets just say the boy has issues.

So, 1:30pm, me and the whole family go to a nearby playground/softball field to see these tykes play ball. The setup is surreal, seeing these yuppy suburbanites live their childhoods through their own children, sitting in folding chairs under canopies drinking DaSani's...it's almost like that Showtime Comedy series "Weeds"...it made me wanna puke. Give me stickball in the streets with incoming traffic every 5 minutes with the parents nowhere to be seen and making sure the ball doesn't hit an innocent bystander walking by anyday...

The sun, the annoying whiny parents, the lousy gameplay of these kids that wouldn't even be good enough for a Public School gym class, and worst of all...THE BUGS! I can't tell you how many times I felt something crawling on my arm...

halfway into the game, me and JOE took his two younger kids to the playground far away from the field to talk about Florida. He's got an interview on the 15th. He almost booked a flight down there, but changed his mind at the last minute. Now, he way thinking of driving down there with the whole family. I'd told him that'd be crazy and then he asked if I would come. The dude's not sure what to do as usual and things are unclear for me too. If I finally get the call to go back to work?

He was talking about flying down there for the interview and coming back the same day, but who the hell does that?...Donald Trump?, Tom Cruise?...Be in New York at 9am, down there by 1pm, and fly back by 10 in the evening...why put yourself through that much Jet Lag? We later put the serious stuff aside as the game ended and went back to JOE's house to play some PS2.

It had been so long since I played my old games (Yeah, I kept them!). I really wanted to get some aggression out by playing some Light Gun games like the TIME CRISIS series, but my video "Gats" were kinda messed up from inactivity. So then we played so Trivia Pursuit Unhinged and Simpsons Road Rage. When the kids got bored of hanging around the adults, me and JOE play a couple of rounds of "Outlaw Golf 2" (Which is a bit more risque for children to be seeing...) much to the dismay of his wife who didn't find any of the dark humor remotely funny. (Hey, golf can't all be Tiger Woods and junk!...Strippers, Convicts, Gigolos, Trailer Park Trash, Mafioso Princesses and a Dominmatrix just entitled to play a few links AND beat the ever lovin' snot out of their caddies!)

Soon, it was time to go, and in true "Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas"-style, JOE drove me to the Train Station with seconds to spare...one day he's gonna get me there late and I'm gonna beat the hell outta him for the extra hour I have to wait till the next train!

Now, for some bizzare reason, the ride BACK to the city is always worst than going OUT there. The train is filled with crazy Long Island Party Goers heading to the city like it's fucking Vegas or something! They're these overdressed "VALLEY" chicks that are probably 16-looking-like-they're-25 doing their makeup and acting like extras from a Lindsey Lohan movie, and these Don Johnson wannabe Lounge Lizards that have seen "Swingers" and HBO's "Entourage" one too many times TRYING TO ACT BLACK, running up and down the middle of the train car shouting "Ev'ry body in train Gettin' TIPSY!" It's like a school bus of little kids going to Disneyland, and I'm there asking myself "Am I going to the right place?, Is this the right train?, I'm trying to get HOME!...whereas these people think they're going to Sin City!"

The expirence is just too weird for words, you just have to expirence it to believe it. Hence, the title of this post...Why does the trip home from LI seem like days, compared to the hours it take to get out there in the first place?!?!?!?

So, I finally get home at 11pm, MOM and my Niece are asleep thank goodness, I peel off my clothes and take a shower, getting rid of those immaginary bugs that were all over me. I had turned my cell phone ringer off all day while I was out there, so when I emptied my pockets I noticed I had a few missed calls and some voicemail messages. I called up to listen to my messages...

The second one was from my Team Supervisor from the UN gig, I got the go ahead to report at the midtown office where my next scanning assignment for this German Bank was to begin...Monday, at 8:30am...Son of a BITCH!, the instant I put in that claim for unemployment, these BASTARDS!

Well, with what I endured, I feel that was a reward of sorts...let that be a lesson, folks...

"You go through enough crap, you get a nice shiny penny in the end." Hmmm, I should copyright that...

"This is my Mission, and I choose to Accept It"

It's offically been 30 days since I've last worked.

And even though I've taken the drug test for the next assignment at this German bank I still havent heard from Secacus about a starting date.

SO, I started a claim for Unemployment this morning.

I still got around 800 in the bank, but the hell with that.

I call JOE at work to see if he's up for MI:3, he gives the routine song and dance about work, "...too busy, blah, blah, blah..." Then he lays a bomb on me...

"YO, I might be moving."

I was like "Moving to a new building at work?...moving to a new house..."

"Moving at home..."

So I said "Where?"

"Out of State."

"You moving up to Massachusetts? To be closer to wifey's family?"

"Nah, Moving to Florida."

I shake that off quick..."Please. You've been saying that for two..."

"I got an Interviews" he interrupts, "I'm goin down on the 15th..."

"AFTER Mother's Day?" I asked.

"I was thinking of asking you to come with me..."

Now, THAT blew my mind...he brought the ticket already...He was really freaking serious.

"Dude, I'll come out to LI to see you, Tomorrow..." I said, and then he hung up.


Now, putting that out of my mind, I SHOULD have just went to the movies MYSELF, hopped a few theaters, catch "Silent Hill", maybe even "RV" and probably "Scary Movie 4"...but NO!...I stayed inside on this beaUtiful day to mope around the house. Thinking of what to do with my free time if the Unemployment kicks in...

*Get my Motorcycle Driver's Licene so I can finally get a bike one day.
*Take up a class at night to learn something...
*Devote my life to being a Party Promoter, climb my way to the upper class and forget everybody I ever known and loved as a child growing behind.
*Sell My comics to clear up space in my room and get some extra money...
*

Anyway, after wasting the entire afternoon doing nothing, Psycho-Sis brings over my niece at 7:30. She talks mom into going down to a soul food place down in harlem for dinner so the 3 of them go off to catch a cab downtown.

15 minutes later MOM calls my cell phone from my sister's phone...

I still can't believe this story as I'm preparing to type it...

It seems that the cab that was in front of the house wasn't THEIR cab picking them up to go to 125th Street. It was another cab to take a little boy home from my neighbor's apartment down the hall (The cabbie was waiting for someone from the same floor...), so in light of the Mix up, Mom, Psycho-Sis and Baby Girl climb out of the cab and let the kid get in and take off. THEN the right cab comes and takes them down to the soul food place where MOM realizes she doesn't have her keys!

She calls me in a panic and asks me to search the house for them. When I can't find them she then thinks she left them if the first cab (That took the little boy...). She then tells me to go down the hall and ask these neighbors (That I barely know!) the phone number to the cab company they called. Wondering if I'm in the Twilight Zone, I walk down the hallway and try to explain the situation (They barely speak ANY english!)...MOM's blowing up my cell, scared as hell...when I get the cab company's number, the damn dispatcher gives me a hard time because the cab's not responding and he's working the switchboard. I try to tell him how important it is and he tells me the car may make a run back to our building so I wait outside for a hour...

Mom calls again and I tell her what they told me, she says they're turning around and coming back. I wait and wait, no cab comes back, and then MOM and company arrive in yet another cab. I give her the phone number and she decides to stay outside and wait, while me and Psycho-Sis goes upstairs. We get upstairs and Psycho-Sis looks around the house again...AND FINDS THE DAMN KEYS!

MOM comes back upstairs, I let her have it for driving me crazy and having me trying to talk to people I don't even know...letting her know how senile she is! What would have done if I wasn't here?...WHY the hell did they need to go down to 125th Street for dinner?, WHY DO they have to take CAB'S EVERYWHERE!, and WHY DOES MY IDIOT MOTHER LET PSYCHO-SIS MANIPULATE HER ALL THE TIME!!!

I can't them anymore, all three of them...

I'd almost believe JOE going down to Florida is a sign for ME, but it's too damn HOT for me to EVEN consider living down there! No freaking way!

BUT I definately should consider SOMEPLACE else...Maybe Philly...

"You make me want to be a better man."

People have said it in the past to me...

"You have so much LOVE you want to give to someone else, that you don't even THINK about yourself."

I would never admit it of course, but it's true. But that's the way I am.

I CAN'T do it just for me, there has to be someone, someone else...

Someone who believes in me, who truly, deeply LOVES me back. Then, it is then that I excel in everything I do.

In June of '89, when I graduated from Junior High School...

OPAL has just ran away from home that winter and I was crushed. I gained 60 pounds before we graudated...my class ring had to be resized because it wouldn't fit. I DID work that summer in the parks department and lose some of the weight...but it wasn't till I met Diedre Freshman Year that I started to REALLY work out.

She took me for who I was then, and then as I changed, she reacted no different...because she loved what was INSIDE. Who would do that in THIS day and age?

THEN,

After the car accident...I gained it all back again.

My weight gain and loss have been based on the events of my life and my enviroment.

When I worked down at Wall Street, I ate nothing but Fruit Salads, then in Westchester, I bulked up on junk food.

I've loss some of the "Westchester Fat" due to all the Bullshit the last two years, and you can say, I'm holding steady, now...(Got getting bigger, but not losing either.).

I know I can get better, I just need someone to make it worth while...

Like I said, I can't do it for me, alone.

I need, that special someone...so I can make her dreams come true, put her problems ahead of my own...I need someone to LOVE me now and let me love her...forever.

"Cold Turkey..."

Well, to prevent digging a hole you can't crawl out of...it's time to trim the fat and cancel some of those "Automatic Credit Card Transactions"...

I was going to unsubscribe to AdultFriendFinder anyways, so many teases and diasters...

The girl from Staten Island...
The Couple from North Dakota...
The Nurse that wanted me right there and then...
The escort looking for a sugardaddy...
The young waif from White Plains...

SO many failures, what am I to do?...I've tried Craigslist, Yahoo! Personals, AOL, MiGente, what's next? Match.com?...eHarmony?, nah, those 2 only work for white people.

Maybe I'm just meant to roam the rest of my life alone..."Traveling the world to do Good." (heh, heh, I love that line from "Congo"...)

Times like this I think about hanging up Blogging again...I dunno, I'm pretty sure things'll turn, but I get so tired of waiting.