Hey,
Still alive...
Still feeling crappy.
This past weekend was the Long Beach California Meet and Greet on FF.
To my knowledge Vix didn't go. I really don't know what's going on with her, I barely see her in the chat room, we don't IM, the whole thing is going on Life Support.
I guess you can say, I've moved on.
This weight loss challenge on the site has been driving me up the wall...
I'm beginning to forget what Happiness feels like.
All I feel is hunger, despair, anger and self loathing.
SO I ask myself this..."WHY THE HELL am I doing this?!?!?"
I mean, the organizer of this whole thing, SHELL (WHO is DROP-DEAD Gorgeous from jump street) is really good with the moral support, but I'm really on this negative kick right now.
I mean, if I lose weight, will that improve my chances of getting a date? NO.
My chances of having sex? Nada.
My chances of feeling good? I feel like shyt now!
So WHY am I subjecting myself to this torture?
Have you ever noticed how Healthy Food is WAY more expensive than Junk Food??!?!?
What good is eating right if you gonna be broke all the time?!
And exercising...
don't get me started there...
I dunno, I need some inspiration...
"What is my Motivation?"
"Gone Baby Gone"
The movie Kicks ASS.
Who knew Ben Affleck could Direct THIS good?!?
Everybody with children should see this movie.
Yeah, it's about kidnappings and missing children, but it's REAL.
This movie showed the REAL world that's out there...
You know how in some movies like "Spider Man", everyone in New York City are beautiful and model-like? "Gone Baby Gone" shows the REAL Dorchester, Massachusetts. Dorchester is as hood as Baltimore, The Bronx, South Philly, or South Central...it's the real ghetto, where whites are jus a poor as the blacks, everyone knows everyone and nobody's pretty. You see some HUGE, homely, common folk in this movie. With Ben's younger baby-faced brother, Casey sporting Adidas sneakers and a jogging suit, wearing his crucifix and saint medallion, you'd think he was jus some punk with a funny accent, but he comes off great making one of the hardest choices a man can make.
The cast is fantastic, Morgan Freeman (damn, he's done a lotta movies this year!), Ed Harris are strong Oscar contenders. They adapted the book very well, and should maybe do another of the 5 book series. "Gone" is the third, thou...and with the ending, they really can't go back to the first two, I think they should just move ahead and do "Prayers for Rain". It was Amazon's Best Mystery of 1999, and the book that made me backtrack and read the others...it was also the last one of the series, so far and one wonders if Dennis Lehane will go back to his PI Duo of Kenzie and Gennaro when his non-genre novels (Mystic River, Shutter Island) and his TV writing (He's done storylines for "The Wire") are getting SO much acclaim.
So, Like I said, this movie has Oscar written all over it like "The Departed", I hope it gets noticed.
Who knew Ben Affleck could Direct THIS good?!?
Everybody with children should see this movie.
Yeah, it's about kidnappings and missing children, but it's REAL.
This movie showed the REAL world that's out there...
You know how in some movies like "Spider Man", everyone in New York City are beautiful and model-like? "Gone Baby Gone" shows the REAL Dorchester, Massachusetts. Dorchester is as hood as Baltimore, The Bronx, South Philly, or South Central...it's the real ghetto, where whites are jus a poor as the blacks, everyone knows everyone and nobody's pretty. You see some HUGE, homely, common folk in this movie. With Ben's younger baby-faced brother, Casey sporting Adidas sneakers and a jogging suit, wearing his crucifix and saint medallion, you'd think he was jus some punk with a funny accent, but he comes off great making one of the hardest choices a man can make.
The cast is fantastic, Morgan Freeman (damn, he's done a lotta movies this year!), Ed Harris are strong Oscar contenders. They adapted the book very well, and should maybe do another of the 5 book series. "Gone" is the third, thou...and with the ending, they really can't go back to the first two, I think they should just move ahead and do "Prayers for Rain". It was Amazon's Best Mystery of 1999, and the book that made me backtrack and read the others...it was also the last one of the series, so far and one wonders if Dennis Lehane will go back to his PI Duo of Kenzie and Gennaro when his non-genre novels (Mystic River, Shutter Island) and his TV writing (He's done storylines for "The Wire") are getting SO much acclaim.
So, Like I said, this movie has Oscar written all over it like "The Departed", I hope it gets noticed.
"One of the best Twist Endings in a while..."
Hi.
It's been awhile since I posted, yeah.
Been thinking about hanging it all up like Joe Torre.
Sorry if that's shocking to all of ya'll but I'm not gonna lie and pretend everything's hunky-dory.
I'm just going thru some...SHIT right now.
I did decide to do this post because I jus saw this great cyber-blackmail-eroitc-thriller starring my lovely (and preggers) Halle Berry and Bruce (yeah, this ain't my real hair, I know!) Willis.
SEE THIS MOVIE!
"Sixth Sense", "Kiss the Girls", all those...you can add this one to the list of unexpected ending that kick ass!
Man, I wish It made money this past spring.
I really, really related to Giobanni Ribisi's character, the techno-geek hacker helping (and Obsessing) Halle with his killer skills. I should SO be that guy.
anyhoo, it's 4:45am, now...
Imma look at my burned copy of "1408" (Yeah, I did say I would BUY the dvd, but what da hell, I'll buy "Spider Man 3" 2 weeks early than it's release date first thing Monday instead.) and Scare myself to sleep.
Peace!
(Yeah, I'm Back to saying "Peace" instead of "Toodles"...ugh!)
"As the world revolves..."
So, putting the Vix soap-opera in the back burner, She MAY move up her in November, or later. It's so uncertain and up in the air.
If or when she gets here, there's a good chance the magic will have passed.
She's going thru some personal stuff right now that I cannot divulge and it's straining our already deteriorating friendship.
She's with her mother in a hotel, so we no longer phone bone and...well that's all I'm saying.
I'm really starting to think something is cursed about me.
It's like, whoever I fall for, misfortune becomes them.
I'm considering renaming myself Da Black Cat Named JINX.
FullFiggas started a weight loss challenge from today to December 23rd.
I agreed to try and lose 20 pounds and get under 300.
My basic regiment will be cutting back on eating and walking more...
and where I walk, I will take pictures.
Let the suffering begin!
If or when she gets here, there's a good chance the magic will have passed.
She's going thru some personal stuff right now that I cannot divulge and it's straining our already deteriorating friendship.
She's with her mother in a hotel, so we no longer phone bone and...well that's all I'm saying.
I'm really starting to think something is cursed about me.
It's like, whoever I fall for, misfortune becomes them.
I'm considering renaming myself Da Black Cat Named JINX.
FullFiggas started a weight loss challenge from today to December 23rd.
I agreed to try and lose 20 pounds and get under 300.
My basic regiment will be cutting back on eating and walking more...
and where I walk, I will take pictures.
Let the suffering begin!
"What do we do? Where do we turn?"
Damn.
I've lost my inspiration.
The very blog that made me start blogging has ended.
http://www.fruitloopsandporn.com/
And the sad part is her last post was a few days b4 my birthday and I'm just reading it now.
Hmmmm...
Maybe this is a sign, that maybe I should hang it up, too...
hmmm...
I've lost my inspiration.
The very blog that made me start blogging has ended.
http://www.fruitloopsandporn.com/
And the sad part is her last post was a few days b4 my birthday and I'm just reading it now.
Hmmmm...
Maybe this is a sign, that maybe I should hang it up, too...
hmmm...
"You wouldn't believe me If I told you."
*sigh*
Alright. It's been a few days, now so I can bring myself up to write this...
First off, no VIX is not in New York, yet. I think that would be obvious to ya'll because if she was here under any circumstance, things would be cool.
So, what happened?
*sigh*
I REALLY don't wanna say...it's jus something out of a Julia Roberts lame-ass romantic comedy...
Friday afternoon, the day before the flight (Saturday, remember?) she was walking in the hotel lobby and she slipped on the floor and hit her head. (Why she's at a hotel if a VERY long and personal background story I cannot reveal.), she was taken to the hospital room and the doctors looked her over, said she was okay, but gave her some medication to keep her cool.
Saturday, the day of the flight she had a bad reaction to the treatment. Water was getting into her lungs and she could not breathe. She was in the hospital practically all day and night, unable to speak, and denied access to cell phone to even send a text. Naturally, she missed her flight which didn't matter because she never gave me the information in the first place.
While all this was happening with her, I was at JFK, got sidetracked, got lost, ended up in Far Rockaway beach for awhile, came back and was basically running around Terminal to Terminal, looking for incoming flights, waiting for a call, a text, or something, while calling her furiously. Her flight was due at 7:30, I didn't arrive till 9pm, and I gave up at 11pm.
When I was back in manhattan, I finally started receiving text messages that she somehow snuck and did. She was finally able to talk (barely) by midnight, and as difficult it was for her, she conveyed her apologies and how bad she felt for all this happening.
I felt like blaming myself. As if I was cursed or something. You couldn't imagine how embarrassing and fustrated I was. I felt like backtracking the last few posts and pretend I never mentioned this stuff before.
I KNEW I should have NEVER had said anything...the SAME thing happened EARLIER this year!
But ALL is not lost.
She IS coming soon. She's practically recovered from that medical scare, and it's only a matter of time before she can try again.
The scattered details of her personal situation, I cannot explain, but she's really in a serious situation and has been since returning from the Ohio Meet and Greet.
We're keeping in touch, we miss each other terribly...we can't wait to be in each others arms.
The metaphor I used recently for this situation was that of a kid waiting to see his father come home from jail, only to have his parole fall through.
The disappointment is heartbreaking.
But SHE IS coming.
soon.
I don't plan to post anything relating to her again till she's here. Not Before, when she's actually HERE!
Alright. It's been a few days, now so I can bring myself up to write this...
First off, no VIX is not in New York, yet. I think that would be obvious to ya'll because if she was here under any circumstance, things would be cool.
So, what happened?
*sigh*
I REALLY don't wanna say...it's jus something out of a Julia Roberts lame-ass romantic comedy...
Friday afternoon, the day before the flight (Saturday, remember?) she was walking in the hotel lobby and she slipped on the floor and hit her head. (Why she's at a hotel if a VERY long and personal background story I cannot reveal.), she was taken to the hospital room and the doctors looked her over, said she was okay, but gave her some medication to keep her cool.
Saturday, the day of the flight she had a bad reaction to the treatment. Water was getting into her lungs and she could not breathe. She was in the hospital practically all day and night, unable to speak, and denied access to cell phone to even send a text. Naturally, she missed her flight which didn't matter because she never gave me the information in the first place.
While all this was happening with her, I was at JFK, got sidetracked, got lost, ended up in Far Rockaway beach for awhile, came back and was basically running around Terminal to Terminal, looking for incoming flights, waiting for a call, a text, or something, while calling her furiously. Her flight was due at 7:30, I didn't arrive till 9pm, and I gave up at 11pm.
When I was back in manhattan, I finally started receiving text messages that she somehow snuck and did. She was finally able to talk (barely) by midnight, and as difficult it was for her, she conveyed her apologies and how bad she felt for all this happening.
I felt like blaming myself. As if I was cursed or something. You couldn't imagine how embarrassing and fustrated I was. I felt like backtracking the last few posts and pretend I never mentioned this stuff before.
I KNEW I should have NEVER had said anything...the SAME thing happened EARLIER this year!
But ALL is not lost.
She IS coming soon. She's practically recovered from that medical scare, and it's only a matter of time before she can try again.
The scattered details of her personal situation, I cannot explain, but she's really in a serious situation and has been since returning from the Ohio Meet and Greet.
We're keeping in touch, we miss each other terribly...we can't wait to be in each others arms.
The metaphor I used recently for this situation was that of a kid waiting to see his father come home from jail, only to have his parole fall through.
The disappointment is heartbreaking.
But SHE IS coming.
soon.
I don't plan to post anything relating to her again till she's here. Not Before, when she's actually HERE!
"Unfortunately, no one can be told what the Matrix is...."
I know you're all on the edge of your seat wanting to know...
...But unfortunately I can't tell ya'll yet.
To be continued...
...But unfortunately I can't tell ya'll yet.
To be continued...
"I wanted to keep it a secret, but I CAN'T!!!!!!"
SHE'S
COMING
ON
SATURDAY!!!!!!
Starts to hyperventilate and passes out!
(No more posts till Sunday!...MAYBE!)
"Wow."
Life throws you curve balls and in the darkest hour help comes in a way you'd never expect.
SOMETHING BIG happened last night (or should I say early this morning.).
And the relationship just took another step in trust.
I can't go in specifics but this day is gonna go down in our little history book me and Vix is writing...
Today, I became a guardian angel. I'm watching over her, protecting her.
"Good people do Good things, Great People help one another for nothing in Return..."
SOMETHING BIG happened last night (or should I say early this morning.).
And the relationship just took another step in trust.
I can't go in specifics but this day is gonna go down in our little history book me and Vix is writing...
Today, I became a guardian angel. I'm watching over her, protecting her.
"Good people do Good things, Great People help one another for nothing in Return..."
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