Wasting time with Jet

Whoo.

I've been up since 6am.

I stayed up during the night to make sure a 5 hour dial-up download completed on BitComet.

Freaking mom promised a co-worker I could burn a copy of "Carpenters:Gold - Greatest Hits". 71MB in 6 hours on dial-up, un-be-fucking-lievable. Had I Optimum Online back in the bronx, it would have taken 15 minutes, TOPS. I've been telling mom I want to get "Road Runner" Broadband Service from Time Warner, but she wants me to have a stable job before taking over the entire, measely 60.00 cable bill and adding 29.99 for the next 6 months on it, then jumping up to a whopping total of 109.00 a month (60.00 Plus the regular 49.99 Broadband price.).

She has a point, but I don't care, I can't work with dial-up any longer, Imma about to rip my hair out from my skull!

So, with the album done, I tried to get some shut-eye at 6am...then woke up at noon.

The house was empty at noon, mom took my niece to the pool to cool off. The heat was getting to us the last few days, heat indexes making it feel like 100 or over, no rain in sight (Yet predicted every damn day!) it was just a day to do nothing but sit in front of the fan. But I had some running around to do...

At 2pm I hit the streets for some browsing and window shopping. The streets we ironically empty due to the Dominican Day Parade being held somewhere in the city. I check my music store and still couldn't find any cool music, then checked out the Electronics scene for some DVD's or Games. I'll admit sometimes I'm just looking for something to buy, just to buy...but I also have some sort of self control.

The wind was starting to pick up and clouds were gathering...It didn't take a genius to tell a freak quick summer storm may come our way, so I headed home. I was right, but I was also wrong. by 3pm it got dark and started to rain HARD, with the wind blowing it everywhere, but then it stopped for a while...Then, at 5...the Thunder started and it go serious...

Lightning lit up the air as a REAL storm started. The rain came down in buckets painting the sidewalk chalk white. The thunder cracked in the sky setting off car alarms for blocks away. This one was a doozy, and poor mom had to take my niece back home to my psycho-sis's house in the bronx. She tried to wait it out as much as she could, but the lord wasn't having it today.

As for me, I did some surfing my mom braved the elements. Read some blogs, worked on mine a little bit.

I'm still thinking about what to do about my birthday next month...

I was thinking about getting away from it all and visiting my aunt in VA, or take a trip down to philly, but another scheme is hatching since the re-appearance of certain "female professional" whom I had the pleasure of being in the company with back in feburary.

Okay, I'm not going to beat around the bush anymore, I'm totally obsessed with this escort I had sex with when I was depressed after the eagles loss the super bowl. For the last six months since the encounter, I've been saving *.gif and *.jpeg files from her craigslist postings and trying to find her offical direct phone number rather than the "Cell-Of-The-Week" number she shares with about 4 other girls. I've nicknamed her my "Blue Fairy" like in the movie "A.I.:Artificial Intelligence". I've yearn to see that face again, to feel her again, and finally, after a long exhausted search...I've found her, again.

Is this a healthy way to live?, no...am I crazy to fall for someone like this, yes, I know...it's like walking a tightrope here in this day and age, but it has been six months since that fatefull night and I'm sure a blood test will find me clear of any std's or HIV. So, I'll get myself checked out and set up another "Appointment" just in time for the Big 3-0. It'll be perfect. I could probably get a discount, and maybe bring some toys along...(Popcicle Sticks, some cool whip, a couple of candles (Can you say "Body of Evidence"?), etc, etc...)

Sounds like a plan...I wish I could post a pic on this blog...but I don't have the balls...I am totally gone, though...we're talking "Hannibal Lecter/Clairise"-type feelings...or that Ewan McGregor movie when he's obsessed with Ashley Judd (Eye of the Beholder?, or something...)

I don't know, I may just chicken out and do nothing...it's just another day, right?

I am truly messed up in the head...and the storm outside's not helping.